A cup of tea... anyone?

I went to my first ever job interview on Monday and sadly, it was not a success. They liked me but later on found someone better. I was this close!

What can I say? I am Crushed. Disappointed. Shattered. Frustrated.

:(

I think I died a bit inside. Nicola said maybe the job wasn't meant for me. But, I don't know. No one will ever know if it was meant for me or not. My mum tried to comfort me and said there will be better jobs out there but this job was prefect. I couldn't find anything to dislike or hate!

But, oh wells. I should keep searching. I guess this is a start. First interview is always a start to more interviews. I need to trust God more. He closes this door and I need to trust him to open up more doors. No matter how hopeless the situation is I need to trust in his faithfulness and believe because there's only so much we, puny humans can do. After that, I read up James. I love the book of James. Occasionally, I would just lie in bed and read it. It gives me so much comfort and hope and just that little bit of strength to get over myself and get up and get moving.

I especially like this verse. James 1:12 : "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." This verse has definitely helped me throughout this year and helped me to not give up and continue fighting when faced with disappointment and fear.