A cup of tea... anyone?

feels so yesterday... (HAHA! Coz it is!)

2010 was a good year! I have alot to thank God for 2010. Right from my studies, to health (bro's surgery and dad's minor stroke), to big brother's grad, to lil' brother's great results and placements, to amazing friends, to course mates that stay up with u to do essays and go through torture lecture with u, to tutors and lecturers for being so very patient and passionate about business and commerce, to amazing people that I meet, to amazing experiences (Sydney, convy, last few months of working at Swiss, leading a CG), to OCF Clayton, to my beloved Dynamites...

God's strength in impossibilities, God's mighty hand over me, God's encouragement in times of discouragement, God's peace and indescribable joy when all is falling apart, God's silent whisper and guidance... 2010 would be impossible without God. I doubt I even survived it! HAHA!

Ok fine... every year has its drawbacks and regrets. Regrets? Maybe not joining the Uluru trip or not putting my hand up sooner enough for the Darwin Mission Trip (got cancelled when I really wanted to go) or not putting much effort in one of my units because I'm done with it or not obeying my parents fully or not trying to talk to a person about my frustration with him... Oh, how bout that failed internship or still job searching, or being hurt by a guy through false hope...

But, the past is the past. Bring on 2011! I intend to live it to my fullest!

So glad I went to church today! I almost wanted to skip to go shopping since we've gone to Hillsong during our trip to Sydney. But, the message today was amazing! It was something I needed to hear.

Today, Ps. Mark Conner spoke about "Seasons in Life" since its the last Sunday for the year! OMG. I know. It's so surreal. This year is almost coming to an end! Well, he spoke about the seasons in life eg: Winter, Spring and Summer and Autumn. Also, relating it to the farmer and his harvest. Winter is when the farmer plans and dreams. Spring is when the farmer gets into action and plant. Summer is when the farmer maintains the crop and Autumn is when the farmer reaps his rewards.

Ps. Mark also talked about dreams. It hit me very hard because right now, I don't really have any dreams. I'm just going with the flow and sort of inspecting waters abit here and there. I used to have this dream of becoming an accountant. During college, I was 100% certain that accounting is it! But, now, this dream has died down. I know God put this dream in me but struggles of uni has killed it. And also the boyfriend dream is dying too. I have yet to have a boyfriend and every guy I meet just automatically becomes great guy friends. I mean, not like its bad or anything (sometimes its better than the alternative), its just abit frustrating that this area of my life is abit stagnant and not going anywhere.

I think I'm in the "Winter" stage, planning and strategising. Lord, I want to have dreams again. I want to feel like a little girl with dreams of one day becoming a Princess again. God gives dreams right? God, give me a dream that will one day be a passion of mine and a way to do big things in your kingdom. Amen.

Just back from the Christmas production at our church.

I quite enjoyed it despite having to seat at the back because my brother mistakenly thought it started at 4.15pm. But, it was quite an amazing one. This year the production was called The Journey of the Light. And yes, as the name suggest, it does have alot of lights/ bling-blings/stars etc... Quite pretty! It also had a missions message, that is to spread the light to all nations and be the salt and light in God's kingdom! Pretty creative stuff!! They also showed a part about China and India with lanterns representing China and a Bollywood dance representing India. But, I thought the Bollywood dance was abit lame coz there were white Aussies dancing and sort of killed it abit for me! But, overall thumbs up to a great performance!

While singing carols, I couldn't help but teared up. The birth of a saviour! Who would have thought this baby in a manger would one day become a saviour to all man-kind! And where would I be if not of this baby? For sure not alive and living the life I have now.

So... we played this game in the train where someone start a word (eg egg) and the next person has to think of a word starting with the last letter (eg giraffe) but repeating egg, giraffe... and so on!

So, we came up with this list.

Monkey, yellow, wind, donkey, yam, malaysia, aeroplane, eclipse, elephant, tango, orange, egg, goose, electric, coconut, tiramisu, uruguay, yemen, naan, netherlands, sunshine, energy, yugoslavia, antartica, australia!

HAHA pretty random. And most of it are country names!

Hello! I'm back from Convy! Convy was... I have no words to describe it. I guess one word I can say is it is very life-changing (and it IS one word!). We learned about unity and the importance of togetherness. The people made this convy amazingly awesome! The fellowship, the late night company, pillow talks, random conversations was plainly awesome. I met quite a few Sarawakians! WOO! Some people thought I was mixed, which ok... I take it as a complement!

This camp really brought me closer to God. I experienced God in a supernatural way. One night, God placed a dream in my mind. I dreamed about something I've always struggled with and has somehow affected my Christian walk and I should keep the dream a secret. The instant I woke up I knew that the dream was from God. It was not a happy dream but a scary dream. In the dream, I felt scared. Some might see it as a nightmare, but to me, it was more like a kind warning from God. A warning that if I don't change my ways, the dream will become reality. When I woke up, all I felt was a surreal feeling... It felt almost awesome to experience God in a special way.

Also, I had the opportunity to bring someone to Christ. Well, her name is Lydia. One of the nights, after a sermon session, I saw Lydia sitting alone with ear phones in her ear and eating oranges. So, the Holy Spirit told me to go to her. So, I pretended to get up to get a drink (I was shy ok?). But, I slowly approached her and introduce myself to her and soon after found her to be someone who has yet to dedicate her life to Jesus. She told me she is about 80% to making the decision to accept Christ and was scared that she might not be truly genuine about God, until she reaches 100%. So, I said, Christianity is a journey. There are times where we will fall apart and fall away from God and there are times when we can fully rest assure and rely on God. We can never be perfect Christians. We can never be 100% ever because of sin. But, Jesus is always there when we fall, when we slip and always knowing we can depend on Him is an awesome thing. Therefore, we need Christ because we know we're never perfect.

A simple, yet, powerful speech. Funny thing is I said all that in Chinese. Yes, the irony. After I said that, I was like WOWWWW did I really say that? I was on a high, but at the same time I was like ok... big deal, she probly didn't even understand half of it. But, on the last day of convy, we somehow sat at the same table again. And I asked her, so, did convy help u decide anything yet? And she said yes, because of what I said that very night. And inside of me, I was rejoicing. I knew it wasn't me, it was God all along because heck no, it couldn't be me who said all that at 10pm on a late night in Chinese. Looking over the table, I could see her beaming, she was a different person, inwards and outwards. She had a special glow and I could see her love for God, just so wanting to burst out of her. Then, the Holy Spirit told me to pray for her and I held her hand and prayed for her. It was an amazing experience for me.

Leaving camp to the airport, I thought of her, of the dream, of the sermons, of all the amazing people and couldn't help but shed a tear. God is amazing... And I am the luckiest person alive to have known Him in such an intimate way and I wouldn't have it any other way. And funny thing is this convy was Holy Spirit led, meaning, the Holy Spirit brought me here, was with me all through convy and when I left. ANDD it is still with me now. Cannot get anymore amazing than this.