A cup of tea... anyone?

This morning was spent with the kids in kids church. I helped the kids with decorating their craft and I taught them about trust through the story of Joseph. I love the story of Joseph. It's just a classic "Have faith in God no matter what" story. But, then, I kinda thought to myself, Joseph was an ego person and of all things deserved to be sold off, yet, God still protect him and had a plan for him! Well, I guess God doesn't pick sides huh?

And, I saw him again the moment I walked up the stairs. It was like light beaming at the mountain top! And yes, inside of me just screamssss for joy. And no, I will stop myself from going on and on and on about how perfect he is. Oh, maybe I should named him Mr. Perfect. But, it was good to see him. It made me smile till my jaw hurts. It lifted my spirits. That moment, it was as if all of my problems were gone. It was as if I was reborn again. I was given a second chance in life. It felt like I experienced love for the first time all over again and it's just as amazing as ever. It was like I was able to believe in God all over again and trust in God in this area, to be my forever trusty matchmaker.

Oh God, when will the time be?

I saw him again.

Okay maybe I should have type all that in capital letters with an exclamation mark because that was what my brain was going when I saw him!

We were packing up. I was helping stacked up the tables with someone else (who should remained nameless for the sake of protecting both our sanity!) and I I glimpsed across our hall and I saw him across the room in the storage room. Such a beautiful person. My eyes was fixed on him as he was busy rushing around putting things into the storage room. My eyes just saw a beautiful person dancing here and there and everywhere. The instant I saw him, my heart started beating like I've taken too much coffee. For one second, maybe two, my whole world paused. It felt like time freeze. And for that one second, the heavy table I was moving felt light. I almost dropped the table. Inside, I was going wild. I was having a little party with myself. I was melting with the sight of him. Oh boy... how can someone be as beautiful as him? He's just a gorgeous man that absolutely takes my breathe away. With him, I don't need breathtaking scenes or air-gasping diamond rings. He's enough to take my breathe away. As I stood there, oh, how I wished I could just stand there and look at him. But, I was moving a table with someone else. So, I clumsily moved the table while trying to still keep him in my vision. But, once I lifted my head, he was gone. Gone like the wind. And there I was standing like an idiot, as if all of that was a dream.

So... I just had the very last pbs. Oh boy... I miss it already! :( Friday will be the last BS. Oh boy, I don't know how to handle it on Friday. I'm sort of looking forward to it but I don't want it to end really!

I'm sad but happy, glad that I have had the opportunity to go through this experience. It's one experience that I will forever treasure and forever remember. I've grown so so much. I've grown my faith, my character, my trust in God. I have learnt to rely on God and give God control. God has definitely pushed me beyond my limits, beyond my comfort zone. I had to go through mental struggles and several personal problems where several times it would be too much to bear. Looking back it was a painful experience, but now, such pruning and cutting and chipping was necessary to help me to grow to a whole new level and to see things in a new, different perspective. I've changed. I feel like a different person. I don't think I'll ever be the person before. I don't want to be the person before.

This will be one valuable experience that I will take with me. Thank God for this amazing experience. Thank you for all those awesome people you've put under me, they just complete it and makes this more exciting. And thank you for my right-hand person, *sigh* what can I say, YOU are one strange person and till now still remains a mystery to understand. But, yes, thank you. Looking back, I couldn't have done it without him and funny thing is I don't see myself doing this with someone else but him! LOL. I know it sounds cheesy but that's how it is!!

yep. I feel like crying now just by typing this. Oh Lordy Lordy, what am I gonna do at our last meeting or when I don't get to see all of u anymore? :(