A cup of tea... anyone?

Well, I guess an Easter Camp post is in order??

I don't even know how to describe this camp. I'm lost for words on how to describe it. Easter Camp was amazing!!! Great food, awesome fellowship, great people, wonderful message and great games!! God was so alive and moving in this camp! I came to this camp not expecting much since its my 3rd camp and not much to be excited about but, oh my, how wrong was I! I went with not much to expect, not really having any desire for God to speak to me, not really expecting the Holy Spirit to stir something in me, just taking this as a weekend away and seeing and catching up with all the OCF friends I've made over the past 3 years.

But, oh, it was AWESOME! I had the time of my life! God moved like crazy... it was such a powerful and uplifting camp! The message was very applicable to me especially one section where Jensen Ma talked about how to testify at our workplace. And he asked this question, what would u do if u were a Christian X? X indicating our profession like accountant or doctor. And really, it was an eye-opener for me because u would only focus on doing your job and not think about how to use your profession to build God's kingdom. It gets me thinking of ways to transform the workplace or profession itself rather than just focusing on my job responsibilities.

And on a side note, I was telling Wen Yi how Melbourne Uni guys are good looking. And she laughed at me and said they are cute meh?? OMG. I scolded her (in a good way)... Melb Uni girls open ur eyes la!!?? But, they are cute and tall and handsome la! And they have a better personality, more mature and more I-want-to-know-u attitude and they dress properly! Why can't Clayton have cute (and tall and better personality) guys!! WHY? haih.

HAHA. It's obvious I'm very picky when it comes to guys.

State election back home. Currently, Sarawak is buzzing with election fever.

I have never felt so strongly about Malaysia, let alone the state of Sarawak. I've never been so "patriotic" in my lifetime. Just felt like flying back home to put in a ballot sheet to give a helping hand. I really do want to see a change! It's time Sarawakians get back a piece of themselves. It's time someone stand up and say enough is enough!! I never knew how bad the current chief minister is. He has done so many bad things, bad bad things just for his own selfish benefits. And, its time a change is made!!

U know, its funny, I still call Malaysia "home". After 7 years in Aussie land, Malaysia still holds a piece in my heart. To be honest, every time I go back to Malaysia, I just have this urge to stay on for good. I feel that I have a responsibility to this country. I feel that there is something I can offer, that I can make a difference (Not like it's bad or anything!) That's why I'm reluctant to fully convert into Australian. We have talked about taking on citizenship but, a part of me still feels Malaysian. It's a part of me and no matter how hard I try to forget it, it will always be in my blood.

Well, see where life goes and God's will. All I can do is pray... pray for God's mercy on this precious land. A change needs to be made and this is the chance to do it!

My brother is preparing to go to Queensland. He got a offer to start his PhD at Griffith University in June. I am so proud of him! Since young, I've always looked up to him and learned from him! I'm so proud of his efforts and hard work and most importantly his passion for science and technology. He is one person that is so passionate about what he does! I'm sure he is going to make an impact in this World! And I'm glad to see that he is not compromising his ethical views and applying Christian judgements to his work (because science is a touchy subject and often conflicts with Christian beliefs!)

I'm so thankful for God for opening this door for him. I am very happy to see him so excited to pursue this dream! Again, it confirmed to me that God is listening to my prayers and He is watching over the people that I love. Also, seeing how my brother never gave up and believe in this dream is a true inspiration for me. It gave me hope that God has something remarkable installed for me and all this dream is worth pursuing for.

I hate to say this but I'm gonna miss him! :( It's gonna be hard not seeing him around... Sigh. Mum and dad are preparing to let him go. Maybe I should prepare emotionally and mentally as well...

After today, I don't think I'm gifted in music. We had this huge group practice for OCF where Kenneth introduced what worship is and we had a jamming session. Honestly, it was abit intimidating seeing everyone so into and enthusiastic about everything musical and people with wow, beyond words jaw-dropping talent (okay I exaggerate, but wow... it is still jaw-dropping!!) I tried to play a few songs and Sabby was like "Sally, u should do this... u shouldn't do this...Maybe try this..."

And, honestly made me think that maybe putting my hand up to do this was a mistake. The reason I put my hand up was because I've always wanted to serve in worship and I thought this is it! I'm doing this. I have to do this! It's now or never! Since young, it has been my dream to play piano for worship. Every time I see someone up there, I will again and again ask myself the question "when are u going to be up there?" But, I'm always too scared or have no confidence in myself. And now... doubt is coming in again. But, then, if I'm not gifted in this area, I should stop right?

I think I'm more gifted to teach. I enjoyed leading Bible Study discussions last year. I've always had a hidden passion and inner desire to teach. If I'm not pursuing a business career, I would be a teacher. I like to impart knowledge and stir questions in others. Just knowing that someone has learned something new makes me very happy! I've been known as "the teacher" among my friends. It's funny, at my 22nd bday speech, everyone was like "Oh, when we needed any accounting help during high school, we would go to Sally!" or something like "Sally taught me how to do this question in the assignment" etc... HAHA!

Sigh...I dunno... But, I guess there's no harm in trying right?

Random thoughts. Hence, no title!!

A bible study that creates more question than it answers is one that i like! We just had a great bible study. And... oh my, thoughts are flying from left to right, back to front! But, basically, we were talking about circumcision (and um... awkward silence!), about Christians being hypocritical and judgmental and this whole thing about more grace from more sinning. And of course, Bjorn's question of whether having KFC is considered wrong from the idea of smoking is bad for you because the Bible said your body is the temple, which later was rebutted with 1 Corinthians 10:23. Also, we talked about the Crusade from the movie, the Kingdom of Heaven from the question of Christians doing something bad for God's kingdom. Now, I want to watch the movie!!

Interesting stuff!! It was very productive!! Food for thought!! After OCF, I was being antisocial and trying to process it all and asking Chee Kai some of my questions! Speaking of antisocial, I am really shy.... There's so many new people in OCF that I don't know and its really hard to introduce yourself when introducing means someone else should be introducing me to everyone! And everyone seems to know everyone! And its rude to barge into a conversation and very awkward to be the only one having to say "Hi! I'm Sally!" in a circle of conversation when everyone already knows everyone. So... hmm... the new people aren't even talking to me! So, why should I be the conversation starter! Okay... I know, I should not have that kind of attitude. But... whatever la. HAHA!