A cup of tea... anyone?

After the Consolidation workshop, I bumped into Angela on the shuttle bus. We sat together on the bus and we talked. Angela is my high school friend. She's also my workmate for almost 2 years.

So, we talked. She somehow brought up OCF, which is a surprise to me. Well, all this while working at the bakery, I have been telling her about OCF. It was a surprise to me coz I didn't expect her to remember (let alone listen to what I said coz most of the time, we're quite busy working at the bakery). And so, I told her more about OCF. Like how we have prayer meetings during exams and how we recently had a play and 5 people got saved.

Then, guilt just came in. If felt like God saying: Sally... look at this lost soul. What are u gonna do about it? Guilt because I didn't have the opportunity to invite her to this play. Well, because, we used to have the same Saturday shift until it got replaced to Monday and so I didn't get to see her much. Okay... it was partly my fault. I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY. But, excuses got the better of me. Excuses... like what I'm doing now.

The saddest thing was she told me she doesn't believe in God. I smiled, all I could do was flashed a smile. But inside, my heart just breaks for her. I mean, how can someone missed out on knowing such a great God?

God, I don't know what ur saying but please don't mess up my plans for next year. I do not intend to continue working at the bakery but somehow, somehow... things change. All through the bus ride, this quote comes up.

A quote by Pastor Miso,

"Are u just gonna let these unsaved people that u encounter during ur life walk passed u? Are u gonna just brushed shoulders with these people and do nothing??"

Lord, I dunno. There's too much to think about right now.

I'm scared.

Lord, I am scared. I'm starting to get into the panicky stage about exams. I'm just scared!! Not worried, but scared. My first exam is in less than a week's time and I'm just sooo scared about it. So scared that my heart will suddenly beat like nuts and 100 things will be racing through my mind.

Lord, I know You are in control BUT I still feel uneasy. I guess its just one of them human emotions. I'm just scared about things that are not in my power. I'm just scared of the endless possibilities that might happened when there's only 2 possibilities, pass or fail.

ARH! I'm going nuts. This two weeks will be so hard to live by.

Peace is what I needed right now. Peace.

P/s: I think I need to hire a "title naming" person coz I always run out of title names. LOL. This is evident that my blog has no title too!

Major studying time.

U can do it! AJA (My sad KDrama life!) !

Lord, thank You for giving me peace. Thank You for giving me strength when I feel tired. Thank You for helping me to stay positive. It's all I needed right now.

OMGsh... time does fly.
I cannot wait for this semester to end. It's coming... But I know all will go well.

God, I wished I was more sociable. Sometimes I wished I can just talk like nobody care. Make spontaneous joke even if it was a bad one or even just struck a meaningful conversation. God, I wished I can just fool around like the rest, be the loudest kid in class and not even care.

God, I wished I wasn't that shy. That I wouldn't blushed way too much. That I wouldn't break into awkward laughter or make awkward eye contact or hand gestures. I wished I can say something intelligent once in a while. I wished I can go on and on in a conversation without awkward pauses or one-lined statement sentences.

Sometimes I wonder isit because I'm too quiet, it comes of as I'm just an ignorant person, who doesn't give a shit about nothing? Isit because I'm too quiet that no one wants to even talk to me coz I'm just not interesting enough to talk to?

God responded. Sally, Sally, Sally... If u were loud, would u still be Sally? Would u still be the sweet person that everyone sees. A person that is easy to talk to? A person who's easy to relate to? I didn't create u so u can go and be someone else. I create u to be who u are today. To be someone special. And u are special in my eyes even if u're some loser in someone else's eyes.

I am special. I am special.

Today is a good day.

Thank You JESUS!!!!!

Having lunch with R.

Half smsing, half talking and eating with R.

ME: So... how's Shakers going?? *click click click*

R: Yeah. Good.

*paused*

R: There's ALOT of hot chicks.

*paused*

*Grins* He's waiting for me to respond (I was slow to respond coz I was smsing)

ME: =.='

ME: HEH? HOT CHICKS? ( I tot I had hearing problem)

ME: Wahlao... u go church to see hot girls isit? *shakes head*

Men.

I started my first day of a new term in ROAR on Sunday!!! And it was good!! Good to be in the purple tshirt again. The children learned about Joseph. It was inspiring to me, at the same time, motivating to me. We watched a DVD on Joseph and how he was sold off by his brothers and spent 2 years in prison and then became the right-hand man to the pharaoh and finally was reunited with his family after almost 8 years apart.

I am at awe of his faith even in such times. God silently spoke to me. He told me that ur plans are my plans too. It gave me hope that God is in control. It gave me a reassurance that God will take me through every valley and storm. Even though, there's so much uncertainty and so much struggle within me but I know God is always there. And I can always count on Him.

Lord, I pray for a faith like Joseph. Lord, I pray that u would give me a patient heart to wait for my turn. Lord, I pray for an open-mind to understand all that is happening around me. Amen.

OMGsh... I need to concentrate!!!

It's soooo hard to study at home. I've wasted the WHOLE morning doing nothing but, FB and Youtube. And exams is in 3 weeks. Dead. :(

I need the library. I wished the library was closer. Even the Mt Waverley public library requires 20 minutes walk!! :(

Concentrate. Must finish consolidation. :( Must study.

I love productive day. The satisfaction of it is very indescribable.

I finished another chapter and a half of cost!! :) AND! I started on my longggg overdue corp law questions!! :D

I finally got the green top. :) I was soooo happy the shop at BH have it!! :)

Then, I went to Missha to have a look at the BB Cream. It's much cheaper than the ones at The Face Shop coz same price but greater in volume. But, I only have tried those from The Face Shop but I think Missha's will work just the same.

Then, mum and I went to look at the cakes at those Asian cake shop. Just stared at them... for some people do say we "eat" with our eyes. I love those cakes!!! They are sooooo cute!!! The decorations and all. They are sooo cute u don't dare to cut them, let alone eating them!! Asian cakes are the best!!! Really beats those in Gloria Jeans or cafe cum cake shop.

Well... don't u just love a positive post? :)

Disturbing?

Disappointments.

I hate them.

But, it just keeps coming.

How do I stop them? Someone tell me?

Just back from Alka's Sofia Dinner. To my surprise, I saw 4 familiar face. First. I saw the family from the bakery near uni. Then, I saw Moses from OCF Caulfield. Next, I saw James and Nam from uni. NICE.

Wikum claimed I'm popular. That's why.

I saw a pretty top which I absolutely adore. And 30% off (In other words, very very VERY cheap!) It's got flowy floral green fabric with a black lace around the chest area. But, I didn't get it coz the threads were abit loose and some of them were shredded. So, I didn't get it. But, I am going to check out the one in BH. Talking about it now makes me want it MORE. I sooo must get it.

So darn full. Can't sleep. Need to wake up at 6. Oh shyt.