A cup of tea... anyone?

*Editted*

Enough of emo post! It's new years dammit!

Oh yeah... Sonia, comment please. Don't just come in here and leave without saying anything!

... with a new font!!! :)

After last night, I don't think I'm a party person. I am officially a party pooper!

Why? Coz I don't know HOW to party! I don't drink, I don't know how to dance properly, I fail at camwhoring, I don't have the party attitude and I don't know how to freaking socialise.

Yup.

Clubbing is sooo out of my league. I don't really like clubbing. I mean first and foremost, I am not a party person and secondly, it's so freaking hard to talk over the loud, retarded music. Oh, have I rant about the music yet? DJ music sucks! I never liked those remix songs and even worst, those techno songs drive me insane! And of course the smoking from a neighboring crowd is enough to leave me breathless. Btw, who the heck wastes their sleeping time doing such things?? Well, for sure, not me....

I've only gone clubbing once during my 20th bday celebration, which btw I think is not really classified as clubbing coz its a diner place with a dance floor, bar and clubbing music. So, technically its not really clubbing.

I think we should bring back simple coffee and cake conversations. :D HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! 2010 is a pretty number.

I'm back here. It feels so weird. I miss Malaysia!! :( I had an awesome time in Msia. *sobs* I miss the family. *sobs* I miss everyone.

Okay... enough of emo-ing.

So, what did I do exactly?

Eat alot, shop too much, chrissy visits, family gatherings, church meet ups...

Actually, honestly, I didn't shop my heart out because there simply is nothing much to shop in Kuching. And we only had 1 day in KL. So damn sad okay? I swear I could have gone nuts in KL. But, I still got the stuff that I planned to buy. I brought 3 pairs of shoes (which btw, it is NOT SHOCKING! I could have got more if mum didn't stop me!), a jacket, 2 t-shirts, 2 bras, a book, a waist belt and an eyeliner. I didn't managed to buy bags coz I didn't see any nice ones.

In short, it was a good time spent in Msia. The people made it worth while. Huhu... I miss them all. I'm glad everyone is still healthy and well. Everyone and everything does make me think twice whether to stay in Aus or not. Family do make a difference.

Well, I'm back here. In the taxi from Melbourne Airport to home, looking at the street lights and reflecting lights from buildings afar, I couldn't help but smile at the beauty of Melbourne City. Melbourne is truly a gem. Going past the MCG, Southern Cross Station, the Westgate Bridge, the Yarra River and finally the familiar suburb streets, it feels like home again.

Hello peoples... I'm updating from Kuching. I will blog about it when i get back to Melbourne, which is approximately 2 days time.

Life in Kuching has been quite interesting. Although it's just been a short 10 days stay in Msia, it felt like I've been here longer, a month, maybe 2! Met all the people I needed to see! Brought all the things I needed! Unfortunately, I didn't eat all the things I wanted to! Well, I was down with bad tummy and diarrhea within 2 days of being here. So, I've stopped eating hawker food since then. LOL.

And! I brought an interesting book from MPH Bookstore. It's called "The 10 Most Common Objections to Christianity". It's got good insight!! It's mainly about apologetics, which is a subject I'm quite fond about but have yet to explore. It talks about evolution to whether God is real and the truth about the Bible. A real interesting read!! So, I'll be looking forward to read that on the flight back to Melbourne.

Hrmm... come to think of it, I do miss Melbourne. But, I will miss Kuching deeply. Especially, the people that have made the stay delightful!

One thing about having lunch at work...... that I find funny and weird.

Before lunch, I'll normally say grace even if its just a 15 minutes lunch of chicken and salad sandwich and a mug of mochacinno. The odd thing is after that, I will feel so happy and just so freaking happy? Like a peace wave just hit me! Like I'm on Cloud 9! Indescribable joy. Even if I have a bad morning, my mood will immediately switch to pure joy.

HAHA. The power of prayer. XD

Finally, I took up courage and walked into the cafe to hand in my resume. Well, it's a casual job at a cafe at Glen Waverley and they want an experience coffee-making person. Honestly, I was quite scared to go in. I was wandering outside the cafe for quite some time, before deciding to go in. HAHA. But I'm happy I took up all the courage. Infact, I walked out of the cafe with a smile on my face, just glad to get this over and done with.

I'm glad I followed my heart. Initially, I was quite hesitant to apply for it. I was having second thoughts coz I'm flying off on Sat and it would not be ideal if they call up and can't get through me. But, either way, it would be bad too if I waited till I come back coz the post might be taken.

Thank You God for the courage You gave me. I've done my part, it's all up to God now. If I get this job, which I roughly estimate a probability of 90% success, I will quit the bakery and work for this! DONE!

Damn it!! Writing about this makes me really really want the job!! ><

The feeling of last exam all over again.

Super duper awesomess happy. :D

Blood sweat pay + Christmas money + a pack of mince tart = :)

Shopping here we go! :D I NEED more shoes and bags. Emphasising the word "NEED", not "WANT". XD My mission in Msia is grab any shoe or bag that I see... HAHA!

Oh, and BIG HUGE congrats to my brother for beating me in his ENTER. In fact, he beat both of us. Well, it proofs that the youngest DO get the best genes. :p

And happy 22nd birthday to bigggg bro!!! Hehe... Hope u like the tiramisu cake!!!! :D

Today, at work, my boss's daughter was playing violin outside the shop to earn some cash. She was playing Christmas carols.

And, as I was listening to the songs, just singing a few lines in my head. One of the songs, which I cannot remember, had the line "Baby Jesus". And it just occurred to me that how can someone that do not believe in Jesus Christ play Christmas carols that talks about Jesus's birth and enjoying these songs. I mean, these carols talked about Jesus's birth and show that God really exists. That Jesus really exists. Yet she doesn't believe in the existence of God.

Ironic isn't it?

MALAYSIA in a weeeeekkkkkk......... Can't wait!!

Can't wait man!! Can't freaking wait!! I have this whole to-do list and TO-BUY list planned out already. Ah... I love how the Aussie dollar is so darn high. Perfect!!

3 more shifts left. AHHHHHHhhhhhhh.... I simply cannot wait!!!

I cannot wait to paint my nails in red and green Christmas colors. And maybe put those cute stickers on!! Coz since I started this job, I'm strictly forbidden to paint my nails or simply put anything toxic on my fingers in case I poison the customers. Oh, and by the way, I broke a nail today at work. =_=' So darn piss okay?

I still need to do Christmas shopping for stuff to bring back. I think I'll end up getting chocolates if I really really don't know what to buy.

Oh by the way, something interesting, did u realise lucky and luckily are just two syllables apart but have two very different meanings?

God, You said if I have You all is good.

But, why, why do I still feel the need to have all the other things? Things like money, success, good grades, a pretty face, fame and popularity, a boyfriend to love and be loved, and materialistic things. Why do I still crave for all these things? Nothing's ever enough. It's true nothing's ever enough. I want more. Sometimes we bite of more than we can chew. Why can't I wait? It's just not fair that others have more than me. I don't want to wait. I cannot wait.

Lord, please bring me back to my sensible self. Remind me again that Your grace is sufficient for me. That You are all I ever needed.

I read something interesting in a Christian blog. And felt the need to post something here. Please excuse my plagiarism.

There are a couple of things to keep in mind on first dates or at the outset of a relationship.

Men Should Be the Pursuers

It seems as if the women's movement many years ago has left an environment of men not knowing how to properly pursue a woman and women struggling with the desire to wait for a man's advances and a yearning to expedite the process.

God created man as the "hunter-type" to find (and protect) his wife. There's nothing wrong with letting a guy know you are interested or suggesting you should get together, however he should be the one who pursues you.

I hear from many women who get tired of waiting for a guy to ask them out and take matters into their own hands. The lack of initiative on a guy's part is often a precursor of what you can expect of him in a relationship and in his personality. Oftentimes the things that attract you to an individual at the outset are the exact things that turn you away later in the relationship.

Yup. Total fail in this area Sally! Seriously, I "died" after reading the title. MEN SHOULD BE THE PURSUER!! Women should just sit and watch. But, I thought this was the traditional view!! Who the heck thinks like that anymore? And besides, men take too long to come up with a decision.

But it's interesting about the last sentence, saying that a guy's lack of initiative will show later on in the relationship about how he acts and behaves and treats u in the relationship. I've never really thought of it that way. I guess its true that if women keep making the first move then men would not feel the need to put in any effort and thought into a relationship.

In short, women should do absolutely nothing. Won't it be great if all men understand? But, sadly not.

I saw a flyer about this "movie" when meeting up with the others at Hoyts Cinemas. It immediately caught my eye. It was amongst the other movies like 2012 and New Moon. The cinemas around Australia and New Zealand are showing this "movie". I was holding the glossy, black flyer with the Hillsong United icon on it. My initial reaction was :"Is this a joke?". It's a documentary made by Hillsong United, capturing what's happening in the world like poverty, injustice, war, crime, domestic violence and corruption.

Well, again, my mind couldn't help but think about the so-called celebrity status Hillsong now holds. I mean, they are listed in the Australian billboard charts and competing with other artists, selling albums like huge celebrities, having their own annual Hillsong conference and live concerts that everyone are desperately fighting for tickets, and even have their own recording company called Hillsong Music Australia. I mean, isn't it clear that Hillsong has made a name of themselves. And now, a "movie". Why am I not surprised? But are they taking it too far?

But, then again, I watched that trailer and the trailer itself touched my heart very much. I thought to myself, maybe I'm just being sarcastic. Maybe people will get saved by watching this movie. Who knows. Maybe testimonies of first encounter with God happens in cinemas! Who knows?

I am very happy. I cannot stop smiling now. I feel like screaming my lungs out. Oh God is good.

Well... yes. I passed. I finally passed!!! Like FINALLY!!! I am soooooo freaking happy. Words cannot describe. Ahhh......!!

I've been sort of worried about this for the past week or so. I was particularly worried about FM. I mean, coming from failing twice in 2 consecutive semester, I was prepared for the worst. And oh boy, the wait was torturous. Killing almost. I was doing everything I could think of to keep myself occupied to the point, I seriously couldn't stand it anymore.
My mind was going through the prospect of failing. One, Christmas in Malaysia will be torturous and unenjoyable. Second, I will have to go through another semester of hell, which will not be a good start for me. Third, I will have to go through the process of telling my parents again.

But, I made it. I made it. I did it. This is amazing.

*Edit* Oh and I just realize one more thing. Well, I told myself that if I fail another unit, I will immediately quit my job. And hey, I did not. So. hmm. Yup. So it shall be. My way of making decisions. Tsk... Tsk...

Something happened at work today. Nothing serious really. Well, my boss told me that a customer that ordered two loaves of bread a few days ago died yesterday and so he couldn't picked up the two loaves of bread today.

It just got me thinking. Death is a strong word. When I was young, I thought only old people experience death. That I'm still young and I don't have to worry about death. But, here I am hearing about people dying all of a sudden and young people dying from cancer or teenagers dying from a car accident.

It's true that we cannot predict when we leave this World. I'm glad to have God. At least I have reassurance that I'll be in eternity with God if he chose to let me leave this World. However, sometimes, I have to admit that I do second doubt whether I'll end up reaching Heaven or not. Like just then when I was writing this and pondering, a thought of not getting there did cross my mind. I mean, I've heard things like even Christians that go on mission trips, godly Christians that live their life for Jesus Christ ends up in Hell. And I've heard that God picks out the "good" and "bad" Christians and chooses some people to be with Him. But, of course, with everything, there comes rumors, theories and different stories. But, back to basics. John 3:16 explains everything.

Hearing about the customer who died (no disrespect whatsoever) is more a challenge than a reminder that death is real. We are created and placed onto Earth not because God has nothing better to do but because we are called for a mission. One, the great commission and two, being Christ's ambassadors. It's simply saying, everything u do, do it as if ur doing it for God. And I can say, I've haven't really shown that. I haven't really put my all in everything I do, my work, studies, family, friends.

This reminds me of a quote I read from The Purpose Driven Life. It goes along the lines of "Your days on Earth is a preparation for eternity with God". Life on Earth is just a temporary one. And I chose to live it for God. I will try.