A cup of tea... anyone?

Oh my. I miss you. :(((((( Terribly.

This sucks so much I'm typing in a different font (which means I'm going insane)! I was positive I've gotten over you. I tried to block you out. I tried not to tell you about my life and stopped myself from asking about your life. Our lives should be kept separate for now. I ignored your Hellos, your His and was deeply proud at myself for being strong and not giving in. And then, you JUST had to make a comment about my profile picture with this comment - "Oh pretty picture" and I crumbled.

I crumbled. My strong self gave in. I melted. I went all fuzzy inside... C'mon! Which girl would not melt and smile giddily when a guy makes such a comment? And worst is, he's not just any guy. He's the guy I go to sleep and wake up thinking about and he's the guy I come home thinking about. He's the guy that makes me smile and he's someone I deeply care about. I often wonder what he's up to right this moment. He's the guy that I pray to God every night if he's the one. He makes me feel complete. He makes me feel comfortable in my skin. He makes me very happy. Everything seems perfect......... but the missing piece to the puzzle makes it imperfect. And because its so perfect, it hurts even more that it can never be.

Evil evil person. Why are you doing this to me? Now, all I want is to talk to you. And you're not talking to me. And it freaking hurts. It sucks. So much for being strong!




Comforting myself with this song. There there... its alright! He's a loser for not appreciating someone like me!