A cup of tea... anyone?

After today, I don't think I'm gifted in music. We had this huge group practice for OCF where Kenneth introduced what worship is and we had a jamming session. Honestly, it was abit intimidating seeing everyone so into and enthusiastic about everything musical and people with wow, beyond words jaw-dropping talent (okay I exaggerate, but wow... it is still jaw-dropping!!) I tried to play a few songs and Sabby was like "Sally, u should do this... u shouldn't do this...Maybe try this..."

And, honestly made me think that maybe putting my hand up to do this was a mistake. The reason I put my hand up was because I've always wanted to serve in worship and I thought this is it! I'm doing this. I have to do this! It's now or never! Since young, it has been my dream to play piano for worship. Every time I see someone up there, I will again and again ask myself the question "when are u going to be up there?" But, I'm always too scared or have no confidence in myself. And now... doubt is coming in again. But, then, if I'm not gifted in this area, I should stop right?

I think I'm more gifted to teach. I enjoyed leading Bible Study discussions last year. I've always had a hidden passion and inner desire to teach. If I'm not pursuing a business career, I would be a teacher. I like to impart knowledge and stir questions in others. Just knowing that someone has learned something new makes me very happy! I've been known as "the teacher" among my friends. It's funny, at my 22nd bday speech, everyone was like "Oh, when we needed any accounting help during high school, we would go to Sally!" or something like "Sally taught me how to do this question in the assignment" etc... HAHA!

Sigh...I dunno... But, I guess there's no harm in trying right?