A cup of tea... anyone?

On Sunday, the night before uni began... I was lying in bed and I took out my journal and wrote in it. Since the start of the year, I've been writing my prayers to God in a journal. So, in the dark with the help of my phone for light, I wrote this. Dear God, tomorrow is another new beginning for me. Its uni again! Honestly, I am scared. I'm scared of a new beginning. Lord, I want to have a fruitful experience. I don't want this to be just another semester. I want to have a great encounter, an encounter that I will never forget. I want to meet people. I want to have a whole new experience. Lord, I want to finish this leg of the race on a high.

After I journaled everything, I started listening to this song called You are My Father by True Worshippers and out of no where, tears just came. I was sobbing uncontrollably in my sheets. The Holy Spirit was so alive, so strong and there I was crying. Every muscle in my face was clenching and my eyes were squinting so tightly as hot tears flowed down my cheeks. It was almost like a suffocating feeling. At one point, it felt like I couldn't breathe. It was almost like I was letting out all the hurt, all the anger, all the disappointment over the summer. Just letting it all out! I haven't cried like this for a very long time. And something amazing happened for the very first time (which I will keep to myself)!!

Oh... MY GOD IS GREAT AND GOOD! And to be able to claim that when all is crumbling down is what is called joy and peace. I know now, I WILL have a new beginning because I KNOW God will be there with me, holding my hand and guiding me through. It's just the BEST feeling to know God is there with you in hard times and not so hard times and hearing your prayers and all your cries and tears. And yes, it is the BEST feeling ever!! I am so blessed!! I can say I am confident and excited for this new beginning and what is to come!