A cup of tea... anyone?

Just seeing them both doesn't make me sad. Oh no... it makes me very angry. I just wanna punch his lousy face! There I said it!! I should have stopped at hello but your lies encourage me. I told God, no God, I've been disappointed before. I don't want to be disappointed again. But, it felt so right. I really went to sleep thinking he's the one and sheepishly smiling and spending the whole night thinking about him to the point I don't even sleep at all and waking up smiling to myself. If u see me, I was a different person. I was even prepared to introduce him to my parents. And I was prepared to forget Mr. Perfect (read my previous post on him!) That's how serious I took it.

But it hit me when u were sending texts to the other girl when I was with u. When u held my hand, inside, it didn't feel right. No electric went down my spine. It was a numb feeling. And when u hug me, I was scared to hug u back. That moment, I asked God, "God... what am I doing?", "God, this is not right. I shouldn't be doing this."

I really thank God for this conscious to know it wasn't right. But, mistakes have been made and I'm hurting. Everywhere I go, I'm reminded of him, from freeway drives, Iphone 4 to Honda Cars and South Wharf. Even Australia reminds me of him and it isn't helping because everything Australia is all around me which can get quite depressing.

Well... but this somehow gives me a whole new start to 2011. I'm a strong woman. I can get through this.