A cup of tea... anyone?

God, I wished I was more sociable. Sometimes I wished I can just talk like nobody care. Make spontaneous joke even if it was a bad one or even just struck a meaningful conversation. God, I wished I can just fool around like the rest, be the loudest kid in class and not even care.

God, I wished I wasn't that shy. That I wouldn't blushed way too much. That I wouldn't break into awkward laughter or make awkward eye contact or hand gestures. I wished I can say something intelligent once in a while. I wished I can go on and on in a conversation without awkward pauses or one-lined statement sentences.

Sometimes I wonder isit because I'm too quiet, it comes of as I'm just an ignorant person, who doesn't give a shit about nothing? Isit because I'm too quiet that no one wants to even talk to me coz I'm just not interesting enough to talk to?

God responded. Sally, Sally, Sally... If u were loud, would u still be Sally? Would u still be the sweet person that everyone sees. A person that is easy to talk to? A person who's easy to relate to? I didn't create u so u can go and be someone else. I create u to be who u are today. To be someone special. And u are special in my eyes even if u're some loser in someone else's eyes.

I am special. I am special.