A cup of tea... anyone?

Today, I did my last Saturday shift.

Yup. Finally. FINALLY. FINALLY. It feels like a huge thing lifted of me. I feel great relief. It's not like I hate the Saturday shift, I actually enjoyed it. But, just... it feels great to have my weekend back again. I can go to gym with mummy!!!

As of studies, its slowly catching up to me. There's soooooooo much that needs to be done. Not to mention 2 MST in 2 weeks. Seriously... I feel so helpless. I feel like giving up. I've lost my motivation. I'm just so over studying now.

Sometimes I asked myself whether all this is worth it, whether "killing" myself over a degree is worth it. I know, such a stupid rhetorical question as the answer is an obvious yes. I am worried about everything. I dunno why. I do enjoy what I learn, I'm interested with everything my course offers that is if there isn't any assessments or exams. But sadly, it isn't called a degree for nothing. They really make u work hard for it. I'm scared I won't cope with all of this. I'm worried of slacking off. I guess failing twice in 2 consecutive semesters has downgraded my confidence. But again, everyone tells me that I'm a paranoia and I get worried about absolutely nothing.

Sigh... I hate studying. T_T That's why I am seriously contemplating on switching from double degree to double major.

Somehow I wish I can get through this semester without even having to do any work but again, I know... such thinking would be detrimental.