A cup of tea... anyone?

I needed time to suck it all up. I thought it might take longer for me but I do surprise myself at times. It's slowly sinking in.

I hate hearing other's success. I envy them, all their success. When I look at myself, I don't understand why I'm such a failure. I feel like a bum. A huge bum.

It's gonna suck.

God, I hate when u change all my plans. U know I'm an organisation freak. I like things to be prefect, in order. Now that You've messed up my plans, I dunno what to do, I dunno what lies ahead.

I can only suck it all up.